This is my younger sister and I two months after my youngest sister died 8years ago.
This is one of the last times my sister was herself.
This post is'nt easy for me to write, however mental health especially within the black community needs to be spoken about.
So many of us are suffering outhere not getting the help or support needed.
My sister has struggled with her mental health for nearly 16years.
Each time she has an "episode", my parents have been told its "attention seeking", she doesn't know how to express herself.
It has always infuriated me.
My sister has done all kinds and iver the years has only got worse and worse.
Yet because she is able to hold a job and live alone she "can't be that bad".
The last time I saw her I cried for hours, she was emaciated, her clothes we're dirty, hair matted, hygiene was poor, she was on edge, talking fast.I did not know who she was.
Her "episodes" have included all kinds behaviour, for example...speaking in tongues all night, or whispering to herself, banging on the wall for hours,..there is just too much to write.
Everytime I get a call about her being spotted walking around looking like a "crazy lady" my heart breaks.
Everytime my mom calls me crying not knowing what to do,my soul hurts.
It has been clear as day that my sister is farrr from well, yet to get her the help and support she needs has been one hell of a battle.
Yesterday was a truly sad day, as she posted on her social media that she wants to die and is taking a knife to work.
I have never been so scared in my life, as she cut me off (which alot of people with mental illness do.) I didn't have a way to contact her.
I felt so helpless.
Thankfully she told her boss her intentions, to their horror she has a 6inch knife in her bag.
My parents got her and demanded from her mental health clinic something is to me done.
What has pissed me off the most is that she was sent home, with medication.
What she really needs is residential care and support to really find out what is up.
It baffles me how the doctors can say yes she has psychotic episodes, yes we see the knife, the posts, and yes she has made her unhappiness clear⬇⬇⬇⬇⬇⬇⬇ (cont in comments)